At the age of 22 , I am still wondering the real definition of good friends . Sometimes I felt grateful that God has granted me some good friends . But whenever I felt that I am lucky enough to have good friends in my life , something just pulled me out and got me thinking about multifaceted .

Some people said that it wouldn't be hard to get a real good friend at the young age cause apparently we might have the same lifestyle , same hobby , same interest and same issues that we might encounter that allow us to share our stories or maybe try to seek for opinions instead of telling it to the adults . Guess most of the people don't do this cause you know ... orang muda ....

So when you thought that you already had a good friend , or maybe more than one good friends , you will share everything with them , trying to correct them when they aren't doing right thing or maybe giving some advises so that it could help them at least a lil bit even though nothing much you can do . They might looked thankful and touched during that moment but you wouldn't know how will they react after you leave or behind your back . 

Sometimes it got me into a situation where I couldn't differentiate whether what I did is helping them to make them feel better or making them to hate me more . I felt guilty for not playing my role as a friend when it is needed . But when I try my best to do my part , it is not really acceptable or they might think that I am here to teach them this and that , trying to act like a big sister . 

Don't you feel that being a real good friend is not easy at all ? Honestly , I will definitely   say YES ! I AM SO DAMN  AGREE WITH IT . So I think I should just keep quiet , don't get involved and don't ask so much . Guess this is the best way not to be hated by anyone . 

Am I being too pessimist ? Yes,sometimes. But do you know why ? I've met too many disappointment and frustration . Too much of disappointment that caused me lack of trust towards friendship .  


Anyway, no matter how hard it will be , I'll try my best to face it and look for the bright side . I believe that nothing you can't do if you have the enthusiasm and of course you need to believe into yourself that you can do it . 


I will keep doing my part as a friend until I am not needed =)